Friday, January 30, 2009

incomprehendable

I am sure that we ALL have those AH-HA moments when we are blown away by how much we are loved by the ones that are around us and how much that commit to, participate in and take ownership of our lives and our accomplishments. I was recently reminded of how much a part of their lives our family actually is. And I am absolutely blown away!

I know that our Bible study group and our Bible class group love us and are proud of the accomplishments and successes that we have made in our lives. And I know that they are a HUGE part of our lives but I never think about how important we are to them (to y'all). As Mikenna's arrival gets closer the prayers on her behalf and our behalf have increased as well as the emotion behind those prayers. Amy and Jackie have really touched my heart in those conversations with our Father. This much awaited arrival is such a great blessing to Mike and I but hear a dear sister thank God for bringing her to "all of us" makes my heart so happy!

There are actions and decisions in my past that I regret and relationships that I never should have been in. But one bad decision 9 years ago brought about many really good consequences... It brought me here and to all of you! I am so thankful of that bad decision. And even more thankful of all the blessings God has presented to me since then!

Monday, January 26, 2009

a cute border

ok so Ashleigh came over this past Wednesday and helped me throw some paint on the walls is Mikenna's room!
I painted the pink and green ribbons and Ash stenciled the lady bugs, butterflies, dragonflies and flowers! We really were concerned about what it would look like and then we got it completed, we were quite please...AND surprised! I guess low expectations aren't always a bad thing :)



and now it is all ready for our little sweetheart, whenever she decides to make her presence known!!!
The due date is still the 31st (5 days) and we will induce on February 5th if she doesn't come by then...TEN DAYS, TEN DAYS!!!! so within a week and a half, we will have our little girl in our arms!

Saturday, January 10, 2009

The Real You

Do you have a friend that you are not so close to anymore? One that was close in the past you could finish each other's sentences. And now because of distance and the different place each of you has taken in your OR the place you've been put in your life, there feels like a huge gap between you?

I have a friend (or 2) like that, I am a friend like that. We were close when lived in the same town or when life was treating us the same. I knew how she felt the moment she was in my presence and vise-versa. We could have a good time with each other, just sitting and visiting, watching a movie, riding around, being goofy or just being together not doing anything at all. We loved each other, we needed each other and we truly enjoyed each other! Not that we don't still love, need and enjoy each other... its just not the same.

There are many miles between us and many things to keep both of us busy, and while we still have those deeply routed common areas; our lives are very different, we are in vcry different places. Sometimes we can relate with what the other is going through and sometimes we just can't because of the lack of experience on one of our parts.

We are still close friends and visit when we can. Sometimes because our lives are so different at the moment our visits almost seem forced; we want to be a part of each other's lives and each other's "right nows" we just don't always know how to relate. There have been some visits that are very atypical of our past almost like we don't really know each other anymore, Many times, I don't know what to say or how to act and I think she feels the same way too. Our inward selves get in the way of our friendship and that bound that goes back so far. Sometimes I will leave from being with this dear friend and be sad because I we didn't connect the same way this time.

Well, I got to visit with my friend recently and WOW!!! We were able to put all distractions aside and just let it all out and really have a good visit. There was no distance between us, no difference. Just two gals being friends!!! The True Me and the The True You!! it was nice!!!